All I know is that I’m going to need to be a better me if I want to be successful with my company. The me now with my habits and my mindset is not going to cut it. I’m not as built as I think for this and I need to be. Especially when the business strides.
This whole computer science thing I’m serious about and I swear my mind is not trying to comprehend this. I already told myself that this not something I’m half-waying. I’m going all the way. That is why it is important for me to focus. I believe I can run a successful computer company.
That is why for the month of April I would like to change at least one habit. I want to change one bad habit that could be holding me back with a good habit. I don’t want no more poor habits. If I want to be the best I can be I got to check my habits. I know I got a lot of poor habits. 2021 I’ll eliminate all poor habits. Or at least keep my poor habits minimum.
For years now I’ve been trying to unleash the freakiness and nastiness in ladies. I listen to too much Too $hort. You know $hort Dawg, the Mack of the century. He made me believe that these ladies out here is freaky and looking for the right motherfucker to get freaky with. I don’t blame nobody for thinking I’m that motherfucker. That’s why I talk about mackin and pimpin. For some reason these the only folks that can spot the nymphomaniacs.
To tell the truth, I might claim that playa shit and say I talk like a mack but I bought pussy the other week because I was too lazy to mack. As of now, I’m a terrible mack and my skill level is far from world-class. My mackin is below average. I’m also pretty sure that paying for pussy disqualified me from being a mack because real macks and pimps ain’t paying for no pussy. I’ve paid for pussy more than a couple times already. Really makes me a hip square and I don’t want to be a hip square.
Don’t think I’ll be paying for pussy again. That mean I’m not tricking anymore and no simping. Paying for pussy is laziness too me. That doesn’t mean to be out here trying to finesse these women out there pussy neither. That is a no-no. Got to get my horny mind out the gutters and learn how to mack to the ladies. Then with time I’ll know when I come across the nymphos or even able to talk women into having the love honey moist up between there legs. I’m learning that it takes more words to turn a women on.
I thought about writing a Sherlock Holmes screenplay or event novel. This version would be more urban too. I’ll call it Da Homie Sherlock. He would be a hood nigga name Sherlock Jenkins or something like that. He’ll probably fit right in South Central, Brooklyn, or Atlanta. As a humorist, it would be up to my best abilities to capture the wit of Sir Author Conan Doyle but not too much so readers can catch the originality of my idea. That is what I thought about.
Other than that, my main focus is my computer company. Lately, I only have been thinking about making my first profit. Yeah, It has been around two months now, and still, I have not made money in this business yet. I need to challenge my grind and hustle more. I need my money now. Time to test more ideas than them $5 ads on Craigslist. Then I realize I’m yet to post a $5 ad on Craigslist. Let me go do that and not let the time go by.
Basically I’m a novice who believe that I can make it in the tech industry. The thing is my skill level is extremely low. Then I’m competing against child prodigies, people who went to college for computers and people who has been doing this for years. Fuck them. I got to go into tunnel vision mode. It’s time to adjust my focus as well as improving my skills and experience. It’s time to put in the work and stop half-assing.
My approach to money is finding ways to make more. It is simple for me. I know money has a lot of power and I like using the power of money. If I can multiple my money I am for it. Adding a few more dollars to my wealth is cool with me. I’ll divide it up with my people them. But don’t subtract no money out my pockets. That is my money approach.
NEGUS Computers & Robotics LLC has me at a lost of direction. I have no clue how to run a business. Let me tell you I read all the books on business I could read and look at me not knowing a damn thing. Also, I don’t know what is it my company does. Really the name has nothing to do with the original idea of NEGUS. Originally, NEGUS is suppose to be an information technology and cybersecurity company. Then my imagination ran wild and I talked myself into putting computers and robotics in the name with high expectations of manufacturing and producing high-quality hardware and software for computers and robotics. Which means now I got to teach myself how to make software and hardware. This is the price I have to pay if I want to be a free and independent black man. I’ll teach myself all the computers and robotics I can learn but I got to get this business started and running as soon as possible. So I got to learn computers and robotics as I’m learning about business. I’m prepared to be a student of the game and master my craft.
Up watching some Lebron James motivation videos. Arguably one of the greatest athlete alive at the moment. The mentally of Lebron James is highly respected in my book. This is a man who strive for greatness every damn day. Lebron James wants to be the greatest basketball player in the world, or he is working on being the greatest basketball player he can be. This man is a top tier person. Watching these videos because I’m elevating my focus and mindset. I can’t do what Lebron James does on the basketball court but I can do it with the computers.
This is where I go into my goals and aspirations. I got to give my all every single day like Lebron James. The man a general and a gentleman on and off the court. You can alway catch The King leading and taking charge. He is alway showing why he is the most valuable player. I aim to be the same way with computers. Like Lebron I want to show that fears and limits are only an illusion. That you can put any obstacle, challenges, or wall in front of me and I’ll get through. My championships would be me get awards for my contributions to computer science and selling computer software and hardware for millions of dollars, if not billions. I know is that it all starts in the mind. I’m here develop my King Mentallly like Lebron James and strive for greatness. Lebron said it best, “You can’t be afraid to fail it’s the only way you succeed.”
I felt like coming back and talking about the fictional cyber gang I thought about starting. The Negus Electronic Army would be the coolest cyber gang on the World Wide Web. The Gang would be a culture phenomenon. We would be tied to the internet like porn is tied to the internet. Don’t compare us to no Anonymous neither because we not to activist. We would be strictly criminals that are in it for the money. Come on we would have a monopoly on the dark market. No drug dealer, scammer or hacker would be able to make money unless they give us a portion. I’m saying at least 7 percent on all illicit activities on the net.
Back to my offline life. I want to know how to strike fear into people with only a look. I’ve came across people like that. They got an aroma of danger around them. It makes people unease and uncomfortable. I don’t want everybody to be comfortable around me. I be wanting people to fear me sometimes so I don’t got to act. Don’t confuse it with making people paranoid to be around me but have people sense I’m a dangerous man. Maybe I’ll develop that with time as I develop my skills. What they say, “you got to work smarter not harder and work harder on being smarter.”
I got so much free time on my hands now. You know I just thought about making a cyber gang. It a be a hacker group because that is like the main type of criminal when it comes to the internet. The cyber gang would be called the Negus Electronic Army and I’ll be the commander in chief. The whole goal of this organization would be to make money. I’m helping the weak and we will be fighting the strong. This will be a fearless group of hackers and ruthless if they want us to get to that point.
The rules of the Negus Electronic Army would be simple: Be loyal, no snitching, and be respectful to other members. That’s the basic rules of any gang. I’ll make sure to have a lieutenant too. I came to believe every good gang has a second in command. Plus it a be possible to delegate some of my responsibilities onto another person. The group would have to have people who specialize in different skill sets like networking, programming, and other exploitations.
First order of the Negus Electronic Army would be to attack and destroy small time hackers and hacker groups. Each campaign would be to make the gang strong and bigger in order to fight better hackers and hacker groups. We are going to need to make a name in these cyber streets so it would be a strategic move to eliminate competition. We would be building a reputation as a group to not fuck with. After we build a solid reputation we then go on to do heist around the cyberspace. I got confidence I can plan and execute 10 successful heist. Like loot a cyber company for money or data. I’m a leave a calling call to let the cyber world know we did it. After the 10th heist I’ll disassemble the gang. The world would know of us but not know us. Then we ride off into the sunset with are loot and we have a happy ending like all the good stories I’ve read.