One of my main priorities is quieting that negative voice in my head. The one that tells me that I am not good enough or to quit. I’m tired of listening to it. It is supposed to be part of me but that voice doesn’t want to see me winning. Always wanting me to fall short and give up. It makes me see an enemy of myself when I know I got to be on my side more than ever in this time. I call it the voice of fear because it only speaks when I want to be better and do better. I’ve experienced a calm mind so you can’t blame me for wanting one.
Sitting here thinking about money and ways to become a money master. I have been broke for so long that I’m starting to think that money isn’t everything. Henry Ford once said, “If money is your hope for independence you will never have it.” Maybe he was right but Jay-Z said, “financial freedom is my only hope.” I want to be rich already. Minimum wages are no way to live. I need to be more smart when it comes to making this money.
At my current job I notice how the customers try to little man me. They know I’m not the boss so they make it be known. Saying stuff like “where is the boss” or “the main person knows”. The thing with these comments is the customers know the manager name like I know the manager name. Way too go for the customers because they got me to think of myself as inferior. Now I got to start volunteering my manager name when they out here trying to little man me. The boss name is John Joseph, and no he is not here. I wouldn’t have cared if these were fresh customers but these loyal customers. My ego is screaming don’t let them little man you as a small voice says let it slide. I’m a listen to my ego.
It took me the last week of summer to let me know I am not as smooth as I think I am. Summer 2021 I been trying to be a smooth operator, and this is not my first summer trying to be the smooth operator. This is the summer I’m tired of not being smooth though. You got to understand that 2021 brought the ladies out. I’m talking ladies with they legs out, wearing sundresses, wearing no bra, looking and smelling good. Being inside last year made the ladies want to come out and show out this year. Yet I wasn’t able to get a single number, no date, no sex, or a chick who wanted to only kiss the tip of my dick. I need to do better at being a smooth mack.